Day 1 - Doing Shit

Last week, I was sick enough to rethink my life… and download TikTok after a year-long hiatus.

Tuesday morning, I woke up with a head that felt ready to explode. My throat was sandpaper. My nose wouldn’t stop running. I was as hot as a steaming tea kettle. And yet, somehow, my mushy brain decided it was a good idea to redownload TikTok.

All I could do was sleep, scroll, try to read, and drink hot beverages. I spent so much time on social media that I started noticing patterns—differences between the apps, ways the time I was losing could be better spent.

Today, I’m finally turning a corner. I have more energy than I’ve had all week. Which means it’s time to do what my brain hasn’t been able to do all week: pay attention and dive into why these apps have so much power over me.

Instagram is polished. Intentional. Curated. It usually serves a purpose, which makes it perfect for marketing campaigns. Users who thrive here have beautiful lives—or at least beautiful content to share. That makes sense. The app was built to give photographers and artists a platform to showcase their craft.

TikTok feels unfiltered. Raw. Open. A space for creators to share thoughts, learnings, and reviews. The users who thrive here are relatable and seemingly less curated. Just a camera documenting a journey. Personal reviews feel like advice from a friend. Agendas exist, sure, but the creators who succeed know how to make their stories captivating, authentic, and relatable.

Pinterest is for collecting ideas. Instagram now lets creators post directly to Pinterest, making inspiration even easier to gather. Perfect for events, renovations, or vision boarding. In an ideal world, Pinterest would read your saved posts across apps and organize them into boards automatically.

Spending so much time on these apps got me thinking: how could we replace that time with something truly productive?

The answer HAD to be journaling.

It started simply. A few sentences at night about what was bothering me, what I did that day, or a brain dump of my to-do list. Gradually, my productivity spiked, my mood lifted, and I felt lighter. I started adding three gratitudes and three affirmations to each entry, and my brain chemistry felt like it was rearranging itself. After reading The Artist’s Way, I began journaling in the mornings with my cup of caffeine. My thoughts grew clearer. My ideas became more vivid. I felt like I’d found a cheat code to life.

Even though journaling has started to heal something in me, it made me think more about my purpose.

How do I find my purpose in a world that constantly shifts? Is it a bridge between my creative hobbies and the skills I’ve accumulated over the years?

How do I chase my passion while carrying a crippling fear of failure?

How do I stop worrying about what people are saying?

How do I break generations of expectations about success and define it for myself?

Maybe the only solution is delusion.

In the spirit of delusion, I’ve started experimenting with a solution that combines productivity, brain-dumping, planning, and cycle syncing—all in a pretty little app.

It’s for the girl who wants to do it all but still take care of her well-being. There are many features I want to include, many ideas to explore. And yet, this part is my favorite: turning a daunting idea into something simple, thoughtful, and easy to use